Well, I already wrote two threads about my transition to my iPhone. This one is going to be the most difficult to write: the look back...

Since I have gotten my iPhone 4S all those months ago, I never once put my N900 in a drawer, it sat on my nightstand. Proud. It was exactly the way I wanted it. It had a sense of pride about it. Like Full Metal Jacket, "This is my N900 there are many like it, but this one is mine."

So late at night as I decided to boot up for the fist time in months it hit me that I was an iPhone guy now...

While I love the N900 and the tweakability, openess, customization of Maemo, etc. it just was too slow. It could not compete with the iPhone 4, let alone the iPhone 4S - in almost every aspect.

But holding my iPhone - I feel no sense of pride in what I have done with my purchase. It feels cold, soulless, one might even say Orwellian.

But hypothetically speaking, if the N900 magically got the all the hardware upgrades that the iPhone 4 has - I still couldn't go back. For one simple reason: the iPhone just works.

If Apple got together with the Maemo programmers to not only upgrade their obviously outdated UI and make it open source and factor root access, it would be the perfect device.

It saddens me I can never go back to a world without iCloud (taking a photo/video and automatically having it on desktop when I walk though my front door), Siri, the Google Voice app, banking apps, YouTube anywhere, etc.

But I think there is a silver lining - Apple has gotten cocky, the iPhone 5 in my opinion is nothing special and iOS 6 is a disgrace. I hope that an open *nix based OS will take off from where Apple left off. Maybe someday...

I will return...