Difficult isn't strong enough. I wouldn't know where to start. But maybe other council members might.

As for the last statement, I'll give it one more shot: I believed when I ran this could be the most important term, hoped that we could have an impact and at the same time feared it could be a lame duck term. I'm just stumped as to why that has to be a point of any controversy. There is no conflict in any of those thoughts, and expressing one even in isolation does not negate or put a lie to the others.